HAD TO

i had to
let go of you
i had to
lose the weight
of you
i had to
leave you
in order to find
myself
i had to
break free
and be me
for
no one else
i had to
see you as
you truly were
...unable and unwilling
to give love.

DECEPTION

deceptive words
true lies
wagging tongues
whispered cries
friction within
fractioned eyez
lost hope
shattered prize
what once was
now
will never be
life moves on
but who are we
to judge.

SHOULD HAVE

i should have run
when i had
the chance
should have ducked
while i still
could stand
should have laughed
before i
ever cried
i should have questioned
and then
asked why
love would not stay!

FOR YOU

let the angels hear
my prayer for you
that god will keep
and restore you.
let the sun shine
and warm you
rays wrapped
lovingly around you.
let your faith
protect and
guide you
pick you up
and carry you
...to the land of your dreams.

DANGEROUS

you are dangerous
your words slice 
my heart
like a dagger.
you are dangerous
your kisses burn
like fire.
your voice excites
like a moth
to a flame
-be still 
my rapid heart.
you are dangerous
your eyes a drill
that probe
the core of
my soul.
you are dangerous
your voice enticing inviting
calling me home.
...you are so dangerous
to me.

ALONE STILL

the angels smiled down
from heaven above
i am alone.
and welcomed you
as i cried out
for someone to love
still alone.
god please help me
nothing left
but your pictures
scrambled haunting faded memories
of when
we were in love
ALONE.