THINK OF ME

when you feel
the breeze
in the wind
when you look
at a sunset
that never ends
when you hear
the laughter
of a child
when you think
back and can't
help but to smile.
when you see
birds in flight
in the air
when you carry on
without a care
when you hold
your loved ones
in your arms
and ask God
to keep them
safe from all harm
When you feel 
The breeze 
In the wind
Think of me
Then think again.

THRU

thru the silence
of my pain
thru the sun
and pouring rain
thru the cracks
of my
fractured heart
thru the end
and thru
the start
thru my laughter
thru my tears
thru my triumphs
thru my fears
thru the silence
of my pain
i arise to love again.

BEFORE

before
she descended
into madness
before
she spent
her days lost
and alone
before
she aimlessly
walked and wondered
before
she cried
a million
unanswered tears
before
she prayed
and chanted
before
she descended
into madness
...she believed in love.

SHOULD HAVE

should have
read the signs
along the way
should have listened
to the words
you failed to say
should have ran
before i chose
to stay
should have saved
my heart
before it broke
should have
stepped up
before you choked
should have been strong
but i was weak
should have listened
to the words
you did not speak
should have ran
while i could get away
should have saved
my heart
for another day
oh yes
i should have!

LOVE YOU DEARLY

love you dearly
you know
you meant the
world to me.
blinded by love
i was
my mind would not
see past my heart
no matter how hard
i tried
i couldn't see
the truth
for the lies.
love you dearly
but i guess
it was never enough
not enough
to keep you with me
took me a while
to figure it out
you see.
i love you dearly
but goodbye my love
it was not meant
to be.

THOUGHTS UNDONE

thoughts undone
future unknown
out in this world
all alone
no one to support me
no one who truly cares
if i cried out
in silence
no one to be there.
arms held out
with no one to hold
heart begging
to be loved
but totally ignored.
sitting in sorrow
lie down in pain
casting no shadow
sunset sunrise
thoughts undone
future unkown
out in this world
on my own.

WISH

i wish we were like
actors in a movie
script written in stone
no matter what did
or didn't happen
love  always made it
safely home.
i wish love were like
an old-time movie
where everyone
had a happy ending
when love not only
played together
but prayed and
stayed together.
i wish we were like
actors in a movie
where we could
look back in time
memories without reason
and
without rhyme.
i wish we could love
forever you and i
...i wish

THE END

is this the end
is it over before
it really began
is time not our friend
is there no reason
is there no rhyme
is our love
past its purpose
past its prime.
is this the end
harsh words
salty tears 
so what then.
is it over
before it began
love pushed aside
left in the dark
left to bleed and to die
... is this the end?

GILDED BIRD

instant gratification

yet no satisfaction

protraction betwixt

reaction

silence of sound

darkest of night

fight for what's wrong

yet do what's right.

run like the wind

try as you might

alone in a crowd

but on center stage

gilded bird

fragile is your cage.

WITHOUT YOU

where would i be
without you
lost inside me
without you
drowning in my fears
without you
where would i be.
where could i go
without you
my heart adrift
at sea
without you
nights with no peace
without you
where could i go.
where is my future
without you
cause there is no me
without you
oh where would i be
without you
can't even breathe
without you
begging on my knees
...please stay.

STILL

i feel you still
as i close my eyes
i taste your lips
resting
upon mine
salty yet sweet
your arms
holding me
enfolding me
i feel you still
your body upon
mine
our tongues
intertwined
as we lay
side by side.
...i feel you
still.

DO

do you hear
my heart
do you feel
its rhythm
do you see me
for who i 
truly am 
do you want
to get closer
not just in body
but in soul
do you need
me to hold you
love and at times
maybe scold you
do you wish
to share
my dreams.

LOVE IS

some say
that love
is purely
magic
others disagree
cause for them
its heartbreaking
and its tragic.
some say
that love
is like
the wind
the way
it comes
and how
it goes.
the
reality is
no one
truly knows
until they
fall in!

WHOSE WORLD IS THIS

whose world is this
i don't recognize
whose world is this
when babies
hunger and die.
whose world is this
i don't recognize
when the people
say nothing
-just stand 
blindly by.
whose world is this
when war becomes
the norm
and homeless people
can't find a place
to stay warm.
whose world is  this
i don't recognize
when fake reality
becomes the prize.
whose world is this?

IN SPITE OF

in spite of
my tears
that fell
like rain
in spite of
the battles
in spite of
my pain.
in spite of
your words
that wounded
my heart
in spite of
the drama
-we both
played our parts.
in spite of
your jealousy
your anger
the strife
i miss having
you here
here
in my life
...in spite of
it all!

VOID

something was missing
from her life
she knew
-there was a
VOID.
she found
no joy
no laughter
no smile
ever touched
her face.
-there was a
VOID.
she knew
that love
would never
find her
that happiness
was only
something to be
read about
in a storybook.
-there was a
VOID.
so she gathered
the pieces
of her broken heart
and went to bed.

IN PEACE

can we just
walk in peace
that's what the world
really needs.
natural disasters
man-made wars
when all
we really need
is love
spread
shore-to-shore.
leaders who
fail to lead
and still
the people plead
who among us
will get it right
walk in peace
without a fight
that's what the world
really needs
and still
the people plead
can we just
walk in peace
cause all we need
is to believe
and
walk in peace.

HAD TO

i had to
let go of you
i had to
lose the weight
of you
i had to
leave you
in order to find
myself
i had to
break free
and be me
for
no one else
i had to
see you as
you truly were
...unable and unwilling
to give love.

DECEPTION

deceptive words
true lies
wagging tongues
whispered cries
friction within
fractioned eyez
lost hope
shattered prize
what once was
now
will never be
life moves on
but who are we
to judge.

SHOULD HAVE

i should have run
when i had
the chance
should have ducked
while i still
could stand
should have laughed
before i
ever cried
i should have questioned
and then
asked why
love would not stay!

FOR YOU

let the angels hear
my prayer for you
that god will keep
and restore you.
let the sun shine
and warm you
rays wrapped
lovingly around you.
let your faith
protect and
guide you
pick you up
and carry you
...to the land of your dreams.

DANGEROUS

you are dangerous
your words slice 
my heart
like a dagger.
you are dangerous
your kisses burn
like fire.
your voice excites
like a moth
to a flame
-be still 
my rapid heart.
you are dangerous
your eyes a drill
that probe
the core of
my soul.
you are dangerous
your voice enticing inviting
calling me home.
...you are so dangerous
to me.

ALONE STILL

the angels smiled down
from heaven above
i am alone.
and welcomed you
as i cried out
for someone to love
still alone.
god please help me
nothing left
but your pictures
scrambled haunting faded memories
of when
we were in love
ALONE.

DESIRE

ebony skin
chocolate eyes
rapid heartbeat
quivering thighs
hair of gold
fervent sighs
lips to drown in
why can't i.
wish i was
the one
you seek
but when we pass
you never speak
 i keep
my thoughts
to myself
my desire
put on
a shelf.
rapid heartbeat
quivering thighs
but you
just keep
walking by
...my desire.

SOMEONE

i used to  pray
to God above
that he would send me
someone with love.
someone forthright
someone strong
someone who
would hold me
for right
and for wrong.
i used to speak
to the angels
thru song
asked that my wait
would not be for long.
asked that you
would recognize me
been alone
for a while now
you see.
i used to pray
to the heavens above
...God sent me you
welcome home my love!

DON'T THINK

i don't think of you anymore.
 not in the dark of night
 not when i lie alone in my bed
 i don't think of you anymore.
 not when i smell your scent
 carried in the breeze
 not when our song comes on the radio
 and plays in my heart.
 i don't think of you anymore.
 not when i gaze at your picture
 lopsided in a broken frame
 reflection of my broken heart.
 NO i don't think of you anymore.

IT

out of nowhere it came
yet i could not delete it
from my mind.
it followed me
it stalked me
there was no
escaping it.
it surprised me
with its intensity
with its determination.
i could not shake it
i could not forget it
i could not let it go.
so i embraced it
i tasted it
-a bittersweet memory of you.

EVERY

everybody who died
first lived.
everyone who takes
did they first give.
every story
has an ending
and every ending
had a beginning.
every star
burns bright
at night.
but they all disappear
come morning light.
every door
eventually closes
so somebody
please tell me
does two wrongs
ever make it right.

THE LETTER

ink-stained
blotted with tears
crumbled paper
printed block
of fear.
envelope addressed
no postage needed
thoughts to nowhere
digitally tweeted.
rain of hope
sun of dreams
nothing in this life
is as it seems.

LOVE ME

love me not
with hesitation
nor with regret.
love me not
half-heartedly
or in certain seasons.
love me not
obsessively
nor as a possession.
love me not
selectively
but thru
good times and bad.
love me not
in shadows
but also
in sunlight.
love me not
for pleasure
nor for self gratification.
love me not
as a reflection
but as i am.
...love me UNCONDITIONALLY!

TIES THAT BIND

venerable hatred
media lies
chaos, commotion
are these the ties
that bind
us together
in so many ways
mob mentality
seeking generality
save yourself
forget about me
sign of the times
how can it be
when all
we really
want
is to just
be free!

HE DOESN'T LOVE ME

he doesn't love me
she thought
as she put on
fresh lipstick and ran
a comb thru her hair.
he doesn't love me
she thought
as she locked the door
and started on her way.
he doesn't love me
she thought
as she ordered coffee
black with no chaser.
he doesn't love me
she thought
as she watched the rain
pelt her office window.
he doesn't love me
she thought
as she rode
the bus home
among strange faces.
he doesn't love me
she thought
as she said a prayer
before falling asleep.
..he doesn't love me!

SHE WALKS THE STREETS

she walks the streets
of the city
unseen and invisible
to most
every day
a challenge
to survive
-a maze
to just stay alive.
she walks the streets
of the city
never making
eye contact
aimlessly roaming
-the weight of the
world on her back.
she walks the streets
of the city
hope buried deep
in her heart
she screams out
in silence
lord please
give me the
strength to start
...over again.

AND I THANK YOU

you were there
right by my side
thru all the pain
my useless pride.
grabbed hold
of me
did not let go
wiped my tears
dontcha know.
gave me support
when life
made me fall
taught me to stand
-i wanted to crawl.
many a night
i would have died
but you were there
right by my side.
helped me to find
showed me life's light
let me know
i would be alright
and i thank you.

SHE

she went in search of love
strange men
in strange bars
hot breath
back seat
of cars.
nameless faces
tasteless lies
love not
to be found
still she asks
why?
she goes in search of love
loose pride
no shame
still too naive
to realize
that she's the
only pawn
in the game.

SLOWLY

it came to me
slowly
like a freeze frame
in a silent movie
like a cake that stubbornly rises.
it caught me by surprise
it captured me by the heels
grabbed hold of me
like a lost child
would not let me go.
i stood there in
wonder and in amazement
you see
i tripped
and fell
in love.

THE BIRTH OF LOVE

not a doubt
not a question
no hesitation
just exclamation
arise expectation
in the anticipation
lies hope
determination
...it's the birth of love.

REGRET

she sits alone in her room
thoughts filled with regret
weary and worn
but not dead yet.
her past a mere shadow
her future unknown
never did she imagine
a life on her own.
she wallows in pity
seeks solace
relief
but her heart
now lies muted
her soul filled
with grief.
alone she sits
filled with regret
watches life
pass her by
but not dead yet.

FOR WHITNEY

Life played out
for everyone to see
crowds crying out
"we love you Whitney"
but where were they
when you needed
someone
alone you
lost the battle
I guess your demons won
-gone too soon
your legacy done.
so  fly high
sweet Whitney
sing with the angels above
i just pray you knew
that you were loved.

IN THE NAME OF LOVE

what people do for love
turn around then say
it's love
lie cheat and steal
in the name of love
laugh cry still
where is the love
ask and shield
conceal that love
lust sin feel
and this is love
heartache
you wait for love
pray to the angels
in the heavens above
all in the name
of almighty love.

FALSEHOOD

false smiles
deceitful lips
pressed against mine
locked in a kiss.
held together
fragile promise
future unknown
doubting thomas.
happiness blown
like the wind
repeating rhyme
original sin.

LOVE SHOWDOWN

you look at her
thru golden eyes
target her weakness
covet the prize
caress her ears
foul truths
sweet lies
lay your snare
trip
fall
silent cries
she runs
not to you
but away
...love's showdown
hearts at play.

ONLY TIME WILL TELL

only the passage of time
will tell if love is true
if lust will remain
or fade away
only our remaining days
will show
if the decisions we made
were wise or the folly
of a fool
only with the coming of tomorrow
will we look
back on yesterday
with tears
or with laughter
only time will tell
the things we
do not know.

RUG

muddy boots
filthy lies
shouts and screams
yes
i'm the one
who cried.
Persian
Shag
Berber
Oriental
...you walked over me
like a well-worn rug.

LIKE CHOCOLATE

his words were like chocolate
upon my lips
each nuance
each syllable
a symphony
each sentence
a violin concerto
as he held me captive
in his prison of love.
I basked
in the pure joy
of him
delighted in his
mere touch
frolicked in his scent
surrendered in the moment
but like chocolate
it was a temporary pleasure
...the words 'i love you'
were never spoken.
.

TOMORROW

tomorrow is but
a promise on the wind
and today will soon fade
-just a matter of when.
memories
we keep in heart
and in mind
good times and bad
i'm sure you will find
things that lie in the past
sometimes like a dream
they aren't meant to last.
tomorrow a mere wisp
on the wind
these moments of  life
will never come again
-not tomorrow.

IT WAS

it was ours to win
it was ours to lose
his heart beckoned
like a lighthouse
in the dark of night
and i a lonely ship
lost at sea.
it was our time
it was the wrong time
deserted and stranded
our souls intertwined
by fate
our destiny unknown.
it was heaven
it was hell
it was our story
left to tell
it was...love.