FOREVER

my tears will not change
the past.
my prayers won't bring
you back.
i realize that i must let
you go now
my sanity is at stake.
if i could hear
your voice again
if i could only feel
the touch of your hand.
but time waits
for no one
and dreams soon fade away.
i must let you go now
i've got to get on
with my life,
wherever i go
you will be there beside me
your words shall live
in my heart
forever.

THOUGHT

thought it was love
but it was abuse
thought you cared
but it wasn't the truth
thought you were the one
but i was wrong
thought i was weak
but now i'm strong
thought happy endings were for real
but you don't care how i feel
thought i could trust
but you were a liar
thought we were forever
but you grew tired
thought you were the one
i could depend on
thought you were my man
but now you're gone.

REMEMBER

do you remember
what it was like
to be free
to play in the rain
and not care
what others thought
to do what you wanted
just because it WAS
what you wanted.
remember
how you talked on
the phone all night
and never ran out of
words to say.
remember staying outside
all day only to have
your mother call you in
when the street lights came on.
do you remember the fun
we used to have?

JUST HOLD ON

my love
don't be afraid
you are not alone
there is no mountain
we can't climb
so just hold on.
sometimes it's hard
-i know that i am
not easy to understand
but be patient
our love will grow
if we just hold on.
tell me
after all that we have
been through
how can you doubt
a happy ending.
have faith my love
and be strong
just hold on
-hold on to me.

WILL WE

i wonder
will it ever be the same
between us
will laughter resound again
will we speak without
recrimination
will the hateful words
cease
will we
can we
go on
without the
drama
and see this for what
it really is
...two people who should have
known better
than to love.

DAD

a man may be called many things...
a Leader
if he has the ability to move men.
Patient
if he never shows or speaks in anger.
Humble
if he never brags nor boasts.
Compassionate
if he helps those less fortunate.
Strong
if he is able to carry the weak on his shoulders.
...but one of the greatest things
a man can be called is Dad.

FRIEND

when i needed someone
you were always there
-now that the situation
is reversed
i am there for you.
when my legs grew weary
of trying
you were there to carry me.
-now that your road has become rocky
your days as dark as night
i will be there for you
to guide the way.
you have been a true friend
-when no one else cared
you stood by me
when all others ran away.
what can i do for you
-you have done so much for me.
so let the winding path take us
along life's journey
let the bitter winds blow where they may.
we have nothing to fear
old friend
i am there for you
to lead the way.

WHY DO MEN GLAMORIZE WAR

why do men glamorize war
and send our sons to distant shores
to die
blood drying
red-stained in the sand
for someone else's
schemes and plans.
why do men glamorize war
as if the fallen have no face
as if a son, a father, a spouse
can so easily be replaced.
why do men glamorize war
and then point fingers
of blame
playing games of toy soldier
seeking power, fortune and fame.
why do men glamorize war?

YOU

you were the apple
of my life
my dear and loving guy
you will always be in
my heart
no matter what separates us apart.
you have gone
-left me all alone
but may my love remain strong
may i have the courage to hold on.
you were the best thing that ever
happened to me
so i pray that God will bless you
for now and evermore
with my love and affection
for now and evermore
Love you always forever and evermore.

AS THE TEARS

as the tears slid down
her face
she barely noticed
that they were salty
-didn't feel
the wetness on her skin
or notice how she shook in agony.
as the tears flowed from her eyes
she was powerless to
stop them, to conceal them
to absolve herself of all
guilt.
as the tears slid down
her face
she only knew
what it felt like
to have a broken heart.

SORRY

sorry
i won't be staying
guess i knew it wouldn't
work from the start.
should of left
a long time ago
- my heart
wasn't willing
even though my head
said it was time
for us to part.
sorry
but i can't do this anymore
kept my feelings
bottled up inside
no longer your little girl
but a grown woman
with my own dreams
with my hurt pride.
sorry
but i have to go now
stayed here way too long
so sorry
but it's time for me
to be out on my own.

LOVE

love found me
love flirted me
love used me
love fooled me
love tricked me
love abused me
love was
oh so cruel
to me
...but love
would not stay
with me.

HAD TO

had to get away
and make time for myself
unlock my shackled dreams
take them down off the shelf.
been so long
that i had forgot
how to smile
had to let go of
my fears
and just relax
for a little while.
been so long
that i almost lost myself
but i finally learned to live
...live for me and no one else.

THOUGHT YOU KNEW

thought you knew me
but you didn't
thought i would stay
but now i'm gone
thought i was weak
but strength
never left me
thought i would crumble
and fall apart
thought i would accept
your misuse and abuse
...but my brother
you thought wrong.

FOR GRANTED

took you for granted
now you are no longer here
didn't realize that my jealousy
would lead to this my dear.
so insecure i was
refused to let you shine
could not belive that
your heart was really truly mine.
where are you lover
how far have you flown
do you ever think of me
out there on your own.
took you for ganted
now you are gone
where are you lover
hope my tears
guide you back home.

SOMETIMES

sometimes
it seems that i don't
fit in
and where i started
is where i will end.
sometimes
i feel that
life is so unfair
but no matter
because who really cares.
sometimes
i sit alone in the dark
just me my thoughts and my
scrambled heart.
sometimes
i wonder
what tomorrow holds
but i guess that's a question
that no one
really knows.
...but sometimes

DIDN'T RECOGNIZE

didn't recognize myself
kept my hopes and dreams
locked on a shelf
lived my life for everyone
but me
but destiny had another plan
you see.
so many thoughts
that i failed to understand
didn't know that God
had another plan.
took some time
for me to
open my eyez
took some time
to finally realize
that i just
have to be me.

ONE WISH

if you had one wish
would it be for fortune
and fame
or would it be to do good
in someone else's name.
if you had all the money
in this world
would you give it
to feed
every boy and every girl.
do you wish to be
just as you are
or do you crave
the life of a superstar.
do you wish for rainbows
without appreciating the rain
would you choose a life of bliss
without ever experiencing pain.
if you had one wish
tell me
what would it be?

SUPPOSED TO DO

cried so many times
because i thought
i would not make it.
tried to figure out
life's rhythms and its rhymes
but somehow
had to fake it.
hurt so bad
my fragile heart
bruised, torn and battered
the remnants of my world
lay shattered and scattered
on display
for all to see
hid the truth deep in
my soul
i was alone
just me.
tell me
what was i supposed
to do
when i'm the one
that no one knew.