I CAN'T

i can't go on this way
with you.
i give up
i give in
there's nothing more
that i can do.
i am the one
you blame
for everything wrong
in your life.
when all i tried to do
was turn darkness
into light.
it can't go on like this
harsh words
hurt feelings
sitting on the sidelines.
tell me
when is my life
really mine?

I GO FORTH

i sit here
with my heart
in my hand
torn apart by life's journey
so much yet to understand.
dreams unfulfilled
hopes on a limb
don't know if i will
make it
still i try
my best to win.
i go forth
thru endless days
pray to the heavens
to light my way.
yet i sit
alone in the dark
and wait for god's strength
so i can start
...to live again.

FINALLY

i waited for you so long
wondering if you would
ever appear.
if i would recognize you
if i would welcome you
with open arms.
i prayed that my heart
would let go of the past
that i would hurt no more.
i told myself not to be fearful
not to doubt
not to look back
in anger.
to accept
that life is not
always fair
to take hold
of every opportunity
to thank God
...that i finally
found love.