PAIN

to see you cry
doesn't give me
any pleasure.
to cause you pain
was not in my plan.
i know you thought
that i counted
each teardrop
-you didn't realize
that i turned
my head in shame.
behind my laughter
there is great sorrow
behind my questions
lies so much concern.
i know you thought
that i counted
each and every teardrop
...but you were wrong.