DADDY

how could you leave me all alone
Daddy
with no one to teach me
how to ride a bike
i had no protector
no strong arms in my life.
mama only said that i looked
just like you
so i grew up a portrait
in self-hatred
with your memory
controlling the brush.
how could you leave me Daddy
crying myself to sleep
never fully knowing a man's love
but searching anyway
in all the wrong places.
Daddy i hate you
and i swear that
i am nothing like you
but tell me please
Daddy
why did you never call?