HAD TO

i had to
let go of you
i had to
lose the weight
of you
i had to
leave you
in order to find
myself
i had to
break free
and be me
for
no one else
i had to
see you as
you truly were
...unable and unwilling
to give love.

DECEPTION

deceptive words
true lies
wagging tongues
whispered cries
friction within
fractioned eyez
lost hope
shattered prize
what once was
now
will never be
life moves on
but who are we
to judge.

SHOULD HAVE

i should have run
when i had
the chance
should have ducked
while i still
could stand
should have laughed
before i
ever cried
i should have questioned
and then
asked why
love would not stay!