THE COST

You don't realize 
The pain or the cost
How much 
I have suffered 
Or how much that 
I have lost.
Cause lovin you 
Is never easy
All things come 
With a price.
But then again 
I never expected 
That the sacrifice 
Would be all mine. 
Thought we were 
In this together 
That you would 
Be there 
Thru stormy weather.
But you left 
As did the sun
Now i am
The only one 
...Standing in the shadows 
Of love.  

REALITY

In this reality 
Where life 
Is its totality 
Where we remain 
Frozen 
By the same 
Fears
That we had 
Before 
Afraid of the 
Unknown 
And to walk thru
That door 
Where enlightenment 
And uniformity 
Are one and
The same 
Could it be
That sunshine 
Mixed with rain 
Will lead us home
Again? 

REFUSE

I refuse 
To give up
Or to 
Give in
I refuse 
To let go
Before it 
Begins 
I refuse 
To fall down 
Without a fight 
I refuse 
To make excuses 
Even though 
I might  
...Not win

LOVE IN THE ASHES

If i could unspeak
The words that i said 
The words that made
You turn and leave 
Would i welcome 
You back 
With open arms 
Or would i realize 
That love
Never returns 
From the dead 
That there was
And will only be
One resurrection 
...will i learn 
To leave love 
In the ashes 

BROKEN

All the love 
All the things 
That we shared 
Woke up this morning 
And found that 
You weren't there 
Guess it's best 
That i learned now 
But it doesn't ease
The pain 
Lord somehow 
Help me to 
Make it 
In spite of myself 
Thought we were 
FOREVER 
But alone
Here i stand
A shell 
Of what i used
To be
Alone for the 
World to see 
...I'm BROKEN