LIAR

I realize now 
That i should 
Have been stronger 
That i should 
Have kept 
My heart under 
Lock and key
That i should 
Not have been 
So trusting 
So naive.
I realize now 
That you were 
A wolf 
In sheep's clothing 
That every word 
You spoke 
Had been spoken 
By you before. 
I should have realized 
Long ago
That you 
were just a
LIAR!

WISH

Wish that things 

Could have been different 

Wish that we

Could have remained friends 

Wish that life 

Didn't come between us

Wish that love 

Hadn't come 

To an end

Wish that we

Could go back

To the day 

Before we met

Wish that i could 

Truly say my love 

That i have 

NO regrets!

BUT

I hurt 
But you
Never see my pain 
I try 
But you
Never acknowledge 
My presence 
I smile  
But you
Ignore my laughter 
I give 
But you 
Can only take 
I cry 
But you 
Never hear me
...I am human 
But you 
Would never know it! 

THRU

Thru the fire
Thru the rain 
Thru the sunshine 
And back again 
Thru the pain
Thru the tears 
Thru the joy
Thru the up 
And down years 
Just want 
you to know 
YOU were 
And ALWAYS 
Will be
The only only one! 

STAY

Some people 
Are not meant 
To stay 
They break 
Your heart 
Then walk away 
Don't even stop 
To say goodbye 
As we lay broken 
And ask ourselves
Why?
Some people 
Are not meant 
To stay
Lies they tell  
Of future plans 
All the while knowing 
They are not 
That man.
Don't even stop 
To say goodbye 
As we lay broken 
And ask ourselves 
Why?

IN LOVE

I don't believe
In love 
Think it's best
Left for fairytales 
Where knights 
In shining armor 
Ride in on
White horses
To rescue
Damsels in distress 
Where hearts are never broken 
Where harsh words 
Are never spoken.
I don't believe 
In love 
Think it's best 
Left for fairytales 
But even then 
The HAPPY ENDING 
Doesn't come until 
The End!

IN MY EYEZ

In my eyez
You can do
No wrong
But your eyez
Never meet me.
In your voice
I find solace and refuge
But your voice
Never greets me.
In your smile
I find joy
Such happiness
But you never
Smile my way.
In my mind
YOU are the one
And in my mind
Is where you stay!

NO NAME

There's no name 
For what i face 
There's no time 
And 
There's no place.
Helpless i stand
Not knowing if i will
Or
If i can.
Out of my mind 
Out of space 
The world closing in
I plead my case.
Please tell me
How can this be 
When the one 
I run from
IS ME?

ALONE

Sometimes i feel 
So alone 
Without you 
Cause you 
Were the one 
That knew me best
Accepted me loved me
Kept my secrets 
Without judging me 
Laugh fought and 
Prayed with me
But God proclaimed 
That you could not 
Stay with me.
You see 
My days just aren't 
The same
Sometimes l feel so ashamed 
No words can describe 
The pain
As i sit and wait 
In vain
At the point 
Of no return.

UNTIL

until i met you 
love was just 
A four letter word
to be found 
in a dictionary 
something that 
my heart could 
not define.
until i met you 
love was a 
figure of speech 
that i used
to hide behind.
until i met you 
i thought that 
happy endings 
were reserved
for fairytales 
...until i met love 

NEVER A TIME

There was never a time 
That i didn't love you 
Wonder where you were 
And with whom 
There was never a time 
That i didn't long 
For you 
That i didn't need you 
That i didn't cry out 
That i didn't grieve 
For you
There was never a time 
That i could imagine 
Being alone 
Out here on my own 
There was never a time 
...THAT I DIDN'T LOVE YOU 

MY STORY

My story
Is not finished
I am here
For a reason
During my
Darkest moments
God raised me
From my despair
God saved me
To begin again.
I don't know
Where life's journey
Will take me
Only know
Where i have been
When it seemed
That ALL was lost
I survived
To live again!

TWO

two lips
set apart
two arms
empty 
two lonely hearts.
two eyes
with nothing
to gaze
two lives
scrambled
along life's maze.
two stories
left untold
two words 
to have and
to hold.
two souls
now as one
to you
my love
cause we have
only just begun!

DID YOU EVER REALLY LOVE ME

DID u ever really
Love me
Or was i
In the right place
At the wrong time
U see.
I need to know
DID u
Ever really love me
Or did the words
I love u
Come so easily.
I need to know
Were they meant
Only for me
Just tell me
Where i stand
Are you
That type of man.
U see
I need to know
...DID u
Ever really love me?

FORGOT

Guess i forgot
How it felt
To be free
Lived so hard
For others
had no chance
To be me.
Forgot who i
Truly was
Let go
Of all
My dreams
Lost in life's fog
Drifting at sea.
Held on
To hope
Clung only by
A thread
Had given up
Tomorrows
Enveloped heartbreak
Instead
...GUESS I FORGOT

A DAY

There's not a day 
That i don't 
Think of you 
And cry
I used to 
Curse God 
Now i just 
Ask myself 
Why?
I wonder 
What might 
Have been 
Can't stop 
Dreaming
That you are 
Still here 
My friend.
But each day 
Starts out
And
Ends the same 
With me shattered
And calling out
Your name.

MOTHER

knew me before
i knew myself
sacrificed in spite
of yourself
there to catch me
when i would fall
instilled pride
so i could 
stand tall
wiped my wounds
and 
wiped my tears
there when 
i needed you
throughout the years
so i honor you
come what may
and wish you
A HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

LOVE UPENDED

Our love has ended
Hearts apart
Souls unmended
Said it was forever
That we would leave
Each other never
But we were too
Naive to know
That love would change
As we would grow
No way to get it back
Guess life threw us
Off track
Now we go
Our separate ways
To love again
Another day!

ALONE

Am i destined
To be
Alone
No love to share
My life with
No love to call
My own.
Alone
In my thoughts
Alone
In my dreams
Love now my enemy
Or so it seems.
Alone
with these
Four walls
Surrounding my bed
Alone
With the black
Of night
Clouding up
My head.
...Please GOD
Send me
Someone to LOVE!

MISSED

She lay alone
Ignored by
The world  
Eyes closed 
Smile faded 
Life gone
So cruelly taken.
No one noticed 
No one cared
Twisted fate
Wind blown hair.
How had it come
To this 
Forever silenced
But NEVER missed!

EVERYONE DREAMS

Everyone dreams
But not all
Are fulfilled
Everyone loves
But yet
Can everyone kill?
Everyone wants
But not
Everyone needs
Everyone has faith
But not everyone believes.
Everyone dreams
Some only
In the dark
Everyone hears
Some in whole
Some in part.
...EVERYONE DREAMS

LET ME LIVE

Bars on churches
Doors kept locked
Liquor store
At each corner
Who rules the block?
Children walking
Better run to school
Life in its unfairness
Can be so cruel.
Bullets flying
Whizzing overhead
Pray to God
As they go
To bed.
"Please let
Me live
For another day"
Not ready to die
Born to play!

LOVE IS A DRUG

love is a drug
that I really
don't need
heart beaten down
broken
left alone
to bleed.
you see
love played me
love used me
as a tool
played me for
a fool.
love picked
me up
then slammed
me down
crashed my world
spun me
all around.
...love is a drug
that I really
don't need
addicted no more
I finally set myself
FREE!!

NO REASON

no reason 
to worry 
no reason 
to cry
stumbling on 
lifes journey
not sure 
how or why.
no questions 
to answer 
no answers 
to question 
words best
left unsaid 
searching for meaning 
before life 
KILLS ME DEAD!

DIDN'T KNOW

we didn't know
that you would
be gone
too soon
that we would be
left behind
dismayed disappointed disillusioned
we didn't know
that redemption
would never come
that second chances
are best left
for story books
we didn't know
that life is sometimes unfair
that life can be cruel
that hearts sometimes
are torn in pieces
never able to be mended
we just didn't know.